Moving on and hopefully moving forward

As Ben Taylor would say "I'll be fine without you" or as Ingrid Michealson might sing, "Its time to give up on you" Jes Kruse just says, "it's done and you might live across the street and work at my job and even go to my gym but I'm in the anger stage and so it's really done"

Turns out the anger stage is so much more fun than the sad stage.

I have always had a hard time with the emotion of anger. I associate it with rage and bad things. Turns out anger is a healthy emotion and letting myself live in this stage for right now isn't bad or scary. During my sad stage after my relationship ended, I remembered all the fun times and the good times.... stuff that made me cry, daily. I have welcomed in this new stage and I think it might even save me some money in my tissue budget. I feel angry for many reasons. Things I won't post for public viewing but just trust me.... I have reasons.

I have a pretty good track record for choosing amazing and healthy people to share life with. Mistakes happen and lessons are learned.

Now I am just like........ now what?? Do I stay in NY? Do I start new? Do I move closer to friends and family? Who I can I beg to move back to NYC? Where is my focus and what am I doing?

Age does matter. When I was 25 and single I was just living life, no pressure. 29 and single is a whole new story. I hear everyone saying "jes, 29 is NOT old" and I totally agree, I just thought my life would be a little different by this age. Being 29 for New Yorkers is like being 16 in Delaware. People don't even think about growing up yet; but I am part Delawarean and part New Yorker. So it does matter to me.

Last Fall Jen and I took H&M to this Halloween festival for kids at the park near my house. There were so many parents with toddlers AND gray hair. Jen said, "are they the parents or grandparents" Come on NY...... that is a little much... even for you as a New Yorker.

So, this is where I'm at. Might as well accept it and figure it out.