I also have just done my own kind of passage. I've moved from my single life, just jes, to married life: Jessica Ann Kruse Cerutti. I made a choice in front of a large group of familiar faces, to start a new family. To love, honor, respect, show kindness, and enjoy someone for the rest of my life.
It was a total rush!!
I've never been so sure of anything.
It was a conscience decision when I sad yes at the beach in North Carolina last August, when he proposed. I knew he was meant to be my life partner.
But as sure as I was, I still felt the weight, the commitment, the promise, the holy vow I was about to make and it took everything inside me to keep from fainting before the ceremony! (I am a fainter, when life gets a little much or too emotional, I have a little trick..... I just pass out. I take my own little time out from life. Not on purpose, of course. My body just does it. It always has. Oh the childhood stories I could tell......)
Anyway - as intense as the deeply serious moments were, right before the ceremony, it was still a joy. In my heart I KNEW, I just knew, I was about to make the best promise of my life.
I've made tons of decisions, or things have happened and decisions have been made that change me forever. But a wedding is so unique because all my favorite people make plans and sacrifice time, energy and resources to come watch and support me making a decision. A lifelong promise. It is such a special time.
My Dad was so kind, and he tried to crack a few classic Dad jokes before we walked down the aisle, to calm me. He has always been a rock in my life. I don't know HOW I would have made it down the aisle without him. He held me up! (literally)
The minute I saw Ryan's face at the alter I calmed. His calming presence is actually one of the millions of reasons I married him.
This picture captures the moment I saw Ryan, I can tell, I tilted my head and knew, we were in this together. We connected at that moment!
Our wedding was above and beyond how I imaged it would go.
As my mind was trying to catch up with my heart, as Ryan and I made promises and became our own family on that day, I was at peace. The beginning of my new home.
In the couple of pictures we have seen so far of our wedding I am out-of-control-happy. I am literally overjoyed and that face is exactly what I always hoped I would feel at my wedding.
Partnership makes me feel alive.
What drives our lives? What brings life. For me, it's always been caring for others and building relationships. The thing that is awesome about putting energy into this new relationship with Ryan is that it is around to stay. It is a constant. It gives life.
