Does he know his Mom cries sometimes from pure joy from the gift he is to us already, just being him. Does he know his Dad built his nursery and loves him fiercely, a love that will only intensify once they meet outside of my body.
I really like our story.
I like our path.
I like how we do life.
It's been a little wild lately, I got gestational diabetes, which means I am taking my blood four times a day and had a few minor melt downs. I fractured my ribs and my back hurts like no other. Ryan is wrapping up his term and had been working 5am-11pm days. We are about to exhale. He finished his term this past week, my ribs should be healing soon, and I am learning where to get blood from so I get enough (and don't have to stick myself more than once at a time) but not too much that it keeps bleeding.
And then there is community. There are people who came to our apartment on Saturday and celebrated our son's life at our baby shower. Friends and family who send love, gifts, support,
kindness, and showed up. People who called and texted cause they couldn't make it but wanted us to know, they love our family and want to support us as new parents. There are people who have been on the journey with me since my childhood and it meant everything to have them celebrate with us.Community helps us realize that there is more than what we see today, there is a bigger picture. We see the many: first-time-parents, and they are still standing. For all that can go wrong in life, we've all been there; sometimes it goes right.
When I goes right, it's a miracle, it's a gift. It's humbling and proof that life continues and pushes us out of dark days into the light. These days are my light, these days are my sun.
I couldn't have ask for more in this little life of mine. My husband, my son, my puppy, my family, and my dear friends- I appreciate you more than words can express. Your support is everything.
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